Should have took the cheese grater!

For all my worrying and taking things I saw as a potential danger and hiding them in my car the one thing that never entered my head was actually his preferred choice on this occasion!

So while I was right to worry that whist I was away that he would self harm or worse the cheese grater was his chosen method to inflict pain in himself 😢

I have so many questions I know won’t get answered from his visit to the GP what did he say? To why a cheese grater?

I know that when he finds something he obsesses over it until

He has to act on it and that’s the scary thing!

It’s bad enough being an hour away but when I’m not even in the country my brain is a mess.

I only found out via good old Facebook!  An innocent photo posted .... 

I actually feel ill.... physically sick through fear and I feel like every time I say anything that remotely sounds like he is improving I jinx it and some thing happens.

Please don’t ask me anymore as I will have to lie....

One things for sure I won’t be going away again for a very long time.

Love Always 

Me x