What a difference a drug makes!

Well I can’t believe that my last post was so bad and here I am a few short weeks later and things have changed so much for the better!

We moved house as we had to go into social housing due to money worries and stability as nice as it was to private rent a big house it was no longer an option and health and well-being for all seemed the better choice!

To be fair it’s been amazing I feel

So happy and settled here and he has been amazing!!!

It seems that the combination of Venlafaxine and lithium have brought my husband home! Along with the therapy he has undoubtedly made the most progress in this horrible 18 months or so!

I know things can change rapidly and have felt the upset and fear of this on many occasions but I do feel somewhat the closer I can say is normal for me on the worry scale!

Juring this journey of fear (which is the only way I can explain it) I have been asked many times how I cope, why don’t I leave him, it’s not fair why is he doing this to his family!

My answers have always been the same....

I cope because I have to buy behind closed doors I am prettified of what’s happening, I don’t leave because he is ill ( I wouldn’t have left if he had cancer)

He isn’t doing this on purpose!!!! He can’t man up he can’t pull himself together.... because he is ill!

I won’t Lie it’s been hard and I have shed many tears it’s been fucking horrendous!

But if you truly love someone you don’t walk away! I just hoped that one day I would get him back and was prepared to wait, don’t get me wrong i also prepared for the worst! 

There is no cure but for the moment we have our husband, Dad, grandad, son, brother & Friend back and we all hope and pray that this lasts for him as for all the suffering we have had you will never imagine what suffering he has battled with x

Thank you for popping in and out and reading my story x

It’s not over by any means but at least for now it’s a happier place x

Love Always 

Me ♥️