Christmas, crowds and burns ..

Imagine not having any money and your mates getting married! Imagine your daughter bailing you out buying the outfit!

Now imagine how you feel... blessed to have such thoughtful children sad that it came to this!

But in reality that’s the least of my worries ... this year has been the shittiest ever and I will be glad to see the back of it quite frankly!.... then I feel guilty.... some people don’t have much time left yet here I am wishing it away 😢

In hindsight going to the Christmas light switch on with little money and major crowds was not the best idea and I could see he was stressed ...

I don’t think I will ever know really but can’t help wonder if that pushed him to self harm again?

Who knows....

Trying to put it into perspective his moods so much better he is more like himself... but the worry of the impulsive behaviour is still there.

This Christmas we won’t have the gifts as before but in my heart and my head I am just greatful that I still have my husband here alive and no money can buy that x

There are people all over with nothing not even family a roof over their head and I have this so I’d like to wish you all a very merry Christmas and here’s to a much better 2018 ♥️

Love Always

Me x